Save your money. Buy about 10-13 lbs of backpacking gear. Hike all summer, at least 75 days in the mountains. Maybe one of the Via Alpina routes. You’ll live a different life. You’ll have time to think about what’s important to you, and what’s not. When you return to your former life you’ll feel a bit sad. You may be inspired to make changes, or maybe not. You’ll probably enjoy some of the simple pleasures for a while, like hot water, or cold beverages.
You know when your computer isn’t working. Turn it off and back on. You need a reset.
That or try psilocybin, under the supervision of good friends.
Another option is to have a child. When you’re a parent you’ll be too busy to be depressed.
Paywalled specifications sounds a lot like security through obscurity. It works well until it doesn’t.