LegionEris [she/her]

Leading a one woman branch of the Erisian Liberation Front! In love with almost everything all the time.

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Cake day: August 23rd, 2023

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  • You’re a truama therapist, then manage multiple neurodiversity communities in your spare time? You give a lot.

    I also have yet another female-identifying client that may have ADHD, bringing the total to 6. I swear, we flock together.

    I think neurodivergent people in general do. I have a sixth sense for picking out people with truama. If I really immediately click with someone, if I inherently understand and get along someone, they probably had some amount or degree of fucked up childhood. My other best friend is so because we are the two at work with CPTSD. There are a few people with PTSD, but we understand each other on a level neither of us gets from other people.




  • As usual this is the end of my week. Today is just laundry and music and weed. My week was kind of amazing. I was blessed with a tome of essential workplace lore: a notebook with a mixture of dramatic personal notes and letters and professional sketches and thoughts left by one of the contractors who built our garage. I read every word of it. It was magical. My best friend and assistant manager who had been talking about our morale issue like it was intractable brought in chili and potato soup Saturday, then homemade sweets to the meeting yesterday. She’s better at this part of the job than she knows.

    Turns out I didn’t actually lose a friend recently. She was broke and turned off her phone for a while. Her carrier’s phrasing sounded like she had blocked my number, but she texted me from the drive thru to prove she hadn’t. Her shithead to-be-ex-husband showed up at the dispensary during this time telling me they were together and asking for her friends and family discount. I thought she blocked me so I couldn’t chew her out. But she is still actively pursuing another man (a great guy who maybe isn’t patient enough for this drawn our divorce =/) and clearly isn’t living like her ex, who looks more and more like meth in human form. (tbh meth in human form would probably be a better person than him.) I am so relieved that I wasn’t just betrayed like it kind of seemed after more than a week of “Message Blocking is active.”







  • Yeah, yeah… idk. I got all my details after the fact from a third party. When it happened, I had already pulled drawers and was focused on counting money and closing. Neither of the people involved felt the need to say anything to me about it. Apparently there was some joking around about cutting hair? It was “haha what if…” playing until suddenly it wasn’t? Then almost everyone fucked off as soon as we were fully closed. Of course BOTH of the budtenders involved have been having their own independant behavior and performance issues. So it’s complicated.

    Fortunately I don’t have to see either of them until at least Thursday. I’m actually at work right now covering for the hair cutter… Hopefully he won’t be too mopey about getting written up, because he could have been fired for assault if she really wanted that.





  • This is more or less something I am actively trying. I just read Convenience Store Woman, and the way the main character/narrator thinks and talks about herself and her convenience store is very similar to how I think of myself and my dispensary. Tbh, I don’t know if I’ve ever identified with a character more than Keiko. So I’ve decided to become the creature known as a dispensary worker. I have to take care of myself so I can be a good dispensary worker. I have to keep my life in order for the dispensary. It’s very important to me, and I’m very important there.

    I only just started thinking this way, but so far I’m encouraged. I didn’t end the day so hungry it was hard to count money tonight. I made myself eat so I would have focus and energy to close. 2023 was a year of wild change, almost all for the better. In 2024, I’m going to stay right where I am and learn to listen to the voice of the dispensary <3