Yes, many people including myself feel exactly as you have described here. I started seeing a therapist about 2 months ago and it’s been helping me. I’m not going to tell you what to do, but I am going to say that experience has taught me that it won’t go away on its own. I would strongly encourage you to seek professional help. The sooner the better. Don’t wait 10 years like I did.

Yeah that sounds like depression to me mate.

A lot of people think it’s about feeling sad. But often it’s about feeling numb, sucking the joy out of everything and focusing on negatives instead of positives.

I would talk to your doctor. Therapy has also been super helpful for me.

Sounds a bit like attention economy burnout. It’s tuned to young adults level of brain plasticity and as a lot of us are aging the cycle is wearing us out. In some ways you might need to start finding time to actually be properly bored again. Not like a constant semi-entertained state or stimulated by work that is dull… just actually properly bored on your own time by choice.

Find some low attention calorie things to do. Read books, chill out in a park or a coffee shop with your phone off, set timers and take 30 minutes of a nap and hit the snooze button for as many times as you want. Win back your high points by expanding the low end resting rate. Unplug from things that don’t give you satisfying returns and see how that makes you feel.

And sometimes it’s okay to lose a bit of sparkle. We get older and it’s a little harder to find things that feel like an authentic fresh experience.

You sound clinically depressed. Please talk to a therapist. Changing up your routine and adding fun things to your schedule should be making you happier.

I just wish i had never been born. I hate this world

I love you dude. You feel the same as me. I flew planes and still felt the same.

As the other commenters have already said, I, too, recommend seeing a therapist about this. But I want to offer an alternative perspective, from personal experience.

A lot of what you’ve said is very similar to something I went through and partially am still currently going through. I used to feel a deep sense of not belonging, of being a misfit, which saturated me so much so that at one point I fell into a deep, self-loathing depression.

Just like you’ve stated, it wasn’t necessarily a static thing, like depression frequently seems to be, it felt active, like a response to a real ‘something,’ but my comorbid childhood trauma made me believe I was the problem.

I started going to therapy when enough became enough, and therapy helped me understand that, yes, I am a misfit, but a misfit in the context of this society and its state. My values do not match what society deems important. My beliefs don’t match the common dogma. I don’t have ambitions in the traditional sense, because my ambitions are centered around concepts like fairness and justice, around comprehension, not status and/or possessions.

Therapy didn’t help me get over these because there was nothing, really, to get over. But it did help immensely in the sense that I felt understood for the first time in a long time. it encouraged me to redirect my frustrations toward trying to be the change I want to see. I got into politics for the first time, I started actually reading the people and theories which matched my values to understand as much as I can of them. Basically, it helped me accept myself as a misfit for everyone but myself. And slowly but surely, that also started filtering people with whom I actually had common subjects. And it turned that general dejection at seeing the world as it is into a motivating anger.

It also heped me understand that all of this was causing me immense emotional discomfort precisely because I, too, love life and everything living. How could one not suffer when seeing that which one loves is suffering?

Maybe this is not the case for you, I dunno. Not offering this up as a solution, just as a different example. Still highly recommend therapy, talking to someone who’s open to listening and understanding always helps.

Others have already recommended seeing a therapist.

In the mean time, I’d like to recommend a book - “Your Erroneous Zones” by Wayne Dyer. It’s a layman’s intro to CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy), though he never says so. It’s an easy read, very approachable. From the 70’s, so you can get a copy pretty cheap these days.

It’s not technical at all, reads more like a conversation.

What do you do that feels meaningful to you? While hobbies may be enjoyable, they’re probably not the void in you that needs filling. Do you feel like you’re part of something bigger? That you’re making a difference or helping other people or society? I think this sense of meaning, or rather, the lack of it, is the key issue with our current generation, especially among young men.

I used to feel the same way. I had a good-paying and stable job, but it felt like a complete waste of time, like I wasn’t actually accomplishing anything. I’d finish work on one building and then just start over with the next. No one ever told me I was doing a good job or that I was being useful. Then I started my own business, and although I’m essentially doing the same work, my attitude has completely changed. I went from working on industrial buildings to working in people’s homes. They call me when they have a problem, I show up, fix it, and I can see the visible satisfaction and gratitude on their faces. That gives me an immense sense of meaning. Like I’m actually doing my part, like people need me.

What I often tell people like you is to grab a plastic bag and go out and fill it with trash. I guarantee you’ll feel great about yourself afterward. Picking trash is just a metaphor but also something you can actually go and do. Could be other similar thing as well. You can’t solve the world’s big problems alone, but you can still make a difference.

I few months back I had to shut off all of my sources of news because all the Palestinian horror stories were fucking with my head. I wanted to in touch with what is happening in the world but it was all too much.

I have to agree with the post on being “properly bored” too. I’ve been dealing with general burnout too and spending time doing nothing and getting lost in my own head has done wonders.

Save your money. Buy about 10-13 lbs of backpacking gear. Hike all summer, at least 75 days in the mountains. Maybe one of the Via Alpina routes. You’ll live a different life. You’ll have time to think about what’s important to you, and what’s not. When you return to your former life you’ll feel a bit sad. You may be inspired to make changes, or maybe not. You’ll probably enjoy some of the simple pleasures for a while, like hot water, or cold beverages.

You know when your computer isn’t working. Turn it off and back on. You need a reset.

That or try psilocybin, under the supervision of good friends.

Another option is to have a child. When you’re a parent you’ll be too busy to be depressed.